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Wednesday, January 12, 2005
Ideals vs. Idols :: a_quest_within
What one believes, trusts, loves and seeks. I take a quest within to understand what I seek the most, the good or the god.
There is more than just a thin line of difference between seeking the good and the god, the means. The destination remains the same, the paths though, very different. This does not question the existence of the god, but the means that seek god.
My congnition may be short-sighted to limited reading of scriptures and intense discussion with friends, and fellow-thinkers. But, not short enought to understand that within Goodness of this world, lies the answer to this Quest.
Why so many people who seek god, do not seek the good, is something I could never understand. Yet, there are people who believe that this world is governed by eternal randomness of the universe::entropy. I believe not, even if it were to be truth. I seeketh more, the good than the god. "Fear of god is begining of wisdom" speaks the Bible. There is some truth left in these words, for it speaks only of the begining, not what comes after.
|| Akasat patitam toyam yatha gacchati sagaram
Sarvadeva namaskarah kesavam pratigacchati ||
Just as all the waters that fall from the sky inescapably reach the sea, all salutations to all the deities reach only supreme being. I would regard seeking the good, as one such drop. I fear god, but not the good.
I'm deeply saddenned by people who give extreme importance to the rituals but not the people around, the words, not the deeds. I'm not dismissing the rituals or the very scriptures that define the sanctity of our culture. But, knowing is just not enough. The essence of any releigion is to seek the good and hence god, not the otherwise.
Few have taken the path, the path Mahatmas and Mother Terresas have travelled. It is said the journey of thousand miles, begins with the first step. I've taken mine. May the good and the god I trust, be with you, for every step you take.
|| hey ram ||
Posted at 02:34 pm by nandz
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I have always listened to this song...yet the lyrics make more sense to my life today, than ever. Some of my all time favorites of this band are: Sweet Child O' Mine, November rain, Knocking on Heaven's Door, Don't Cry.
Pain and Agony, beyond,
a desire, deep within,
truths untold and a dream, to unfold
yet, yields the warmth
like coals, deep burnt, unkindled
not to last forever, this pain
cometh the November Rain.
[Awaiting the Novemeber Rain by nandz]
Presenting Guns N' Roses :: November Rain
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When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain
We've been through this such a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain
But lovers always come and lovers always go
And no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking away
If we could take the time to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me
then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain
Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone
I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you
Sometimes I need some time...on my
own Sometimes I need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone
And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain
Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
Posted at 10:58 am by nandz
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Friday, December 31, 2004
A lone lady, she was,
so near, I could feel her warmth
With a deep breath drawn,
I draw her close to me
I feel the smooth skin,
as her breath sizzled
A beauty, she was, I heard
I hold her in my arms,
only to feel her tears
Pained by her sorrow,
struggled, yet I ask, why?
I hear, only her whisper
She tells,
"I bringeth light to this world
yet, the world seeks only the darkness
and not the light, I bring
I fear, I will no more be loved,
for my end is near"
I wept, not by her sorrow, but love
She felt my tears
and meekly whispered
" I care, not this world, but you,
as in darkness you'd live"
I drew nearer, to kiss
and heard her last breath
and felt the lasting silence around me.
Unfaithful, I was
For I never spoke the truth,
not the truth, I loved her
but the truth, I was blind.
Title: Pain, thy name is love! Date: 12/31/04
Inspiration:
This poem comes from the inspiration to describe what the true love actually means. In the quest of true love, like a blindness that quests the light, A man fell in love with what he has never felt.
A candle that brings the light to his world, a light that he cannot seek, is the lady. He seeketh nothing more al his life, than a ray of light.
An initial reading of the poem would render an impressions of a man's love for a woman, which is untruthful. However, if the metaphor is broken, the same lines renders one's true love. Lines that hold the truth and break the metaphor:
so near, I could feel her warmth
I feel the smooth skin,
as her breath sizzled
"I bringeth light to this world"
Decomposition:
A lone lady, she was,
so near, I could feel her warmth
With a deep breath drawn,
I draw her close to me
I feel the smooth skin,
as her breath sizzled
A lone candle in a room, so near to me that I could feel the warmth. As I draw the candle close to me and feel the smooth waxy skin, a gentle breeze sizzles the flame.
A beauty, she was, I heard
I hold her in my arms,
only to feel her tears
struggled, yet I ask, why?
Never seen a candle before, I feel the 'tears' that roll down the candle. It pains the heart to feel someone cry for me. Struggled, I ask, Why?
I hear, only her whisper
She tells,
"I bringeth light to this world
yet, the world seeks only the darkness
and not the light, I bring
I fear, I will no more be loved,
for my end is near"
wept, not by her sorrow, but love
She felt my tears
and meekly whispered
" I care, not this world, but you,
as in darkness you'd live"
The candle brings the light into this world, yet the world sees only the darkness. The candle fears it end would put me in darkness. I hear not the candle, but its whisper, when the flame crackles through the air.
I drew nearer, to kiss
and heard her last breath
and felt the lasting silence around me.
Unfaithful, I was
For I never spoke the truth,
not the truth, I loved her
but the truth, I was blind.
As I drew near to kiss, all I could hear was the last breath. I feel how unfaithful I have been for I never told I was blind
Posted at 10:17 am by nandz
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Thursday, December 30, 2004
Once bitten, twice shy....I thought to myself. Today, being a life-changing day. Life??
I mathematically used to describe:
Life = f (people, time)
People and time not being independent.
Do people change with time?
Yes, they do and some change overnight and lives are changed overnight, because people in their life are replaced. The world is a domain of people and their response over time. I have come across relationships with people that have changed over time and people who have.
What makes relationship so dynamic?
That is when this interesting thought struck within. How similar are people to television channels?
I would say a lot. No matter how many channels you have, you can always like only a handful of them: your favorites. Some channels are boring like the ones with frequent infomercials. Others are full of unimportant facts like discovery. Some gossip like CNN and some are to lighten you up, comedy central.
What am I? I would honestly agree that I would be comedy central. Not that I'm great with humor but its more apt to what is me. Nobody really watches comedy central. Its a filler when one's waiting for the blockbuster movie to start or changing to it when movie gets boring.
The winning one's are always the prime-time channels? The answer is NO!. Sometimes it is easy to entertain and light up people's lives by just keeping it simple. I guess, one just needs the right audience.
With a determined heart, I begin my quest, once again, to find my right audience. The world's a stage, men and women are actors.
lest we forget, we make some people smile.
Posted at 11:47 am by nandz
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Wednesday, December 29, 2004
Do somethings around us ever change?
With the sun shying to the moody skies, It wasn't a great start I had this morning. I had to rush to the DMV for transferring the title of my car and my Texas DL. With an equally clouded mind, I left my jacket at home. I reached the DMV at 7:30 and was waiting for it to open with people, few. The wait was not over until 9:00 AM, when the DMV was opened. I, then, wondered..Do things around us ever change?
Thoughts teleported to DMV in Chennai, India. I had to wait for my instruction permit to be issued to begin my driving lessons and I had to give a test and there were at least 100 people waiting for the same. Only the numbers seem to be different, the attitude remains.
I felt the same arrogance with the lady who was handing out the forms and got into a heated argument with a man in the line. The man wanted to report this to the Manger and the respone was rudely:"Stop-by as the gates open, I will take you to my manager"
The girl who was helping me out, in contrast, was very sweet and accomdated my additional request to transfer the title under the same schedule. When you walk in to any privatized institution, you can definitely expect a much better level of service. What retards such a public system?
The core is never competent and air of arrogance is fuelled by the dependency of the masses. With thoughts filled in mind, I was asked to report at Gate:8. My requests were efficiently looked onto, in the next 20 minutes.
What a contrast...
I walked out with moderately accented smile. There is defintely hope. Some things may not have changed....but soon will.
Posted at 03:03 pm by nandz
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Tuesday, December 28, 2004
What happened on 12/26/04 is something that we never could have imagined and we never could forget and yet we do! There exists a never-ending struggle between the mights: the nature and human intelligence.
Intelligence is attributed as an ability of perception and reaction. Can the Human Intelligence, that has evolved over thousands of earth years, counter the mights of nature, that would put the titans to shame? Or, Are we just meek souls that walk this planet waiting for the doomsday?
Thoughts, debates pour in on If we could have managed to predict the disaster. It is never easy to expect the unexpected. Who would have thought of tsunamis in indian ocean? Do people even realize that we sit on what is close to tonnes of molten lava, that keeps the earth core active, aiding land formations and continental drifts?
Mind could be mislead by intelligence, at times. Intelligence, always, comes with a hidden cost: Arrogance. This attribute downgrades the level of acheivement by making us myopic.
What is nature? The Vedic Elements: Earth, Fire, Air, Water and Ether composites to nature. The elements have been feared and worshipped for years. The renaissance saw the awakening of the man and the desires within. Man's eternal quest to fathom god or the super-natural, burnt the desire to leash the nature. Arrogance rose within, creating the myth, the myth of being the Might, the supreme.
What this day has led us to believe, is nature can never be conquered and never meant to be. The Arrogance, that evades our mind, needs to be crushed. Lest we forget, we are nothing, but mortals that walk this earth.
A prayer for the lost souls, who were meeked my the mighty nature:
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Om Sahanavavathu
Sahanau Bhunathu
Sahaviryam Karavavahai
Tejaswina Vadheethamastu
Ma Vidvishavahai
Om Shanti Shanti Shanthihi |
OM! May that Brahman protect us both;
May that Brahman nourish us both;
May we work in harmony with great vigor;
May our study be illuminating and fruitful;
May we not hate each other.
Om.. Peace, Peace Peace |
Posted at 02:25 pm by nandz
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Sunday, April 25, 2004
Unfathomed Thoughts!
I just sit here only to wonder "What the hell am i doin' ". It is going to be a while before I can get used to bloggin'. I doubt its worth as anyone would, at the start. I guess it is only time that can answer this, as it does usually in many cases.
I have always wondered about the phrase how "Only Time Can Answer". That would mean that the end of universe is definitive. I remember from my readings that there is an expanding and contracting universe that creates and destroys iteself. If that was the case, the phrase actually makes some sense. It is hard for the tiny human mind to fathom that the fate is sealed. I have a reason to believe that this would affect the confidence of an individual.
Time is an interesting concept. The best possible definition of Theory Of Relativity is that Time seems to fly when one is with the loved one and the opposite happens as they enter the marriage. I have always wondered how the concept of time evolved.
Time comes in two flavors. Good Times and Bad Times. I guess its the Bad Times that are often encountered in plenty. At this point i stop to ponder, is Time singular or plural?.
Its valid fact that time freezes at moments of ecstasy and extreme joy. I guess its going to be a new theory defining the energy-time imbalance. Who the hell is gonna find that, another Eienstien?
Guess... Only Time Can Answer
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Posted at 01:04 am by nandz
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